Dear John SERIES

(Dear) John:my version. Hello Stranger. aPART

John,

he was one lucky guy. But he lost me yet again. And I lost him. But this time, I'm letting it go. I'll just let things happen as they happen.

Fate has its ways. I might find another man. Or I might even find him again. Whatever I might find, I know I'll find. Someone and something worth everything. I'll find myself too. I'll rediscover what I want. I'll rediscover who I am. And maybe even find and rediscover God. Who knows?

Then if John comes back, we'll see. If he doesn't, he doesn't.

I just want something more out of life, love, and everything. And if I can't get that, I pause and listen to the music. I like broken chords. They keep life interesting. Broken chords do make beautiful music when played right. But if the broken chords sound more like broken strings of an out of tune guitar, then I'll change it. Change not the guitar; Change how it's tuned. And although I don't know everything, I know that that's kinda like how life, love, and everything works. And that's why I let him go.

I want a change.

I want depth. I don't want something that is "just not enough"...

I'll change the game. Because I want to.

Oh John and I did have fun.

But the game is over. I'm a little bored and a little heartbroken (I never was 'til now). Now I'm changing the name of the game, the rules and how it's played.

John, you were no mistake. It's just how we played the game.

It's time to tune the guitar, Boo.

Hello stranger.

Six Stars - ANDREA

Thank you life for bein' a b*tch.

Life AND Love and what I know.

Life has its way of talking to you. You'll know it when it hits you hard and makes your world stop for a moment. It has to stop for a moment. Because you need to pause. Because you need that "moment" to breathe. Because you need that "moment" to learn. Because you need that "moment" to grow.

Without that "moment", you'll find yourself stuck in reverse.

So thank life. Thank life for how it knocks you down, breaks your heart, and makes you hate it. Life just wants to talk to you, so listen. Then get up, smile, live and love again.

Thank you life for bein' a b*tch.

Love,

ANDREA

KAOS, a CRAZY GOOD show!

I just watched the spectacular international Las Vegas meets Broadway one-of-a-kind musical spectacle with real wild cats (a lion and tigers), adorable dogs, motorcycles, fire and intense (DEADLY) stunts--KAOS! I lost count of the times I said, "Woah!" and "Wow." and *gasp* EXTREMELY ENTERTAINING! Breathtaking! Stunning set! Beautiful lights!

Bravo to the producer, director, designers, performers, entire cast (with acrobats and performers from Europe, Canada, Germany, our own Philippine All Stars, The Manila Symphonic Orchestra, and my voice coach Jemuel Victorino)!

The BEST show ever. KAOS, A CRAZY GOOD SHOW! Don't miss this thrilling spectacle. I did LOVE it A LOT!

KAOS @ Resort World Manila, Newport Performing Arts Theatre

http://www.rwmanila.com/kaos/tickets.php

The Baliktad Song "Alala Gam Gaw" - Andrea Moredo, Ling Lava

Wrote a song for Philippine Music with some of the most talented people I know (Ling Lava, Mel Rono and Nadine Ratcliffe). I accidentally deleted the video with percussions and piano. So here's one with the guitar. Hopefully, we get to record our performance of this song on Thursday.

Can't understand the lyrics? It isn't a foreign language, nor is it a dialect. The title is a giveaway. Figure it out and enjoy.

Lyrics:
Alala Gam Gaw

Verse:Em7-CM7
Chorus:CM7-D-Em7

Namanan ak naya
Yopa ng oralalgan
Gnal ka natkasasam
Noon ng dalut

Oh
Kayiimu ak tab
Nay om ayak

Ok asaban
lasad ngom yalani nga
Lahamamgap
Naapayapak, asagap

Oh
Kayumii ak tab
Nay om ayak

Oh
Kayumii ak tab
Nay om ayak

Alala gam gaw
Alala gam gaw
Alala gam gaw
Alala gam gaw

Dear John SERIES

Dear John,

It's such a shame for us to part. No one ever said it would be this hard. Oh take me back to the start.

Sincerely,

You're amazing just the way you are. But I'm tired of slow dancing in a burning room because I'm scared you'll forget about me. I want you mine, faithfully.

NO COMMENTS, PLEASE.

Dear John SERIES

Dear John: my version. Edge of Desire, The Only Exception. EXTENDED PART dONE

Dear John,

Skip intro.

Speechless.

I get less of what I want, and more of what I don't want.

I don't know what else say.

Sincerely,

Like what you said, "...life is a series of do's and don't's. And how you think and your motives dictate your choices."

P.S. Don't "rock my world" merely to keep that "bad vibes you so hate" away like you do to them. Don't be selfish. Don't make me like them. Because I'm not. Spare me.

If you need a shoulder to lean on though (although I know you're not the type), just say so.

There, we just said it. Just come back when you want me so bad.

Merry Christmas Dear (or not) John. I'll miss you (although I'll try not to).

Oh, and thank you.

NO COMMENTS, PLEASE.

Dear John SERIES

Dear John: my version. Half of my heart. EXTENDED PART 1

Dear John,

You know how it goes. This is not meant for you to read. Nor is it for others to. It's merely for my silently screaming heart that's been dying to... well, um, to just say what she needs to say. But if you happen to come across this note... then you do. Don't make a fuss out of it.

You know why it's (and I quote) "unfair"? Because I know you could do so much better.

You willingly exerted all your efforts on the countless girls you've dated. From her to her to whoever "her" was. I would know. And that's totally okay. But where is that now? It's playing hide and seek.

Then again, we don't know what we are and we're bound to no expectations. So I can't blame you.

I just know you could do so much better. You just don't want to. And I don't know why.

Don't get me wrong though. I'm having fun.

With half of my heart,

Me

Boost.

Sometimes, all we need is a boost from people who matter.

Compromise.

Not everything is worth the compromise.

I want more.

I've finally come to a point where I'm wanting more.

Risk.

RISK.

Perfect mistake.

Dear Andrea,

People make mistakes.

...and then you learn from them.

Or realize that the mistake had to be done for a perfect ending to happen.

You make that mistake and end up stronger. You get up and fight. You smile, you laugh, you dance, you sing. You bleed and cry, but laugh again. Once you turn the page to the beautiful ending of the story, you'll look back and make a silent laugh. Images, flashbacks, songs of thunder and lightning. What happens happens. It hurts. It scares. It knocks you down. But hey, what if... You become a better person? Then you could say that what you were ashamed about in the past is what you are proud of now. What tore you apart is what keeps you alive now.

Learn. Don't regret.

Don't be afraid.

Love,

ANDREA

Note: I was an "intentional mistake" ;)

If you love someone, don't say a word... Just come over.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mt5VxrwDnEw

John Mayer/Edge of Desire/Hollywood Bowl

This is my favorite video of John.

When I watched this for the first time, I got that electric feeling. Something I never thought I'd get after Slow Dancing...

I watched him sing Edge of Desire live (encore) at his concert in Manila. For some reason, I instantly fell in love with this song.

Btw, I cried at this concert. Like a little girl hiding her tears, disguising them as raindrops.

The rain was perfect.

Edge of Desire - John Mayer @ Hollywood Bowl

Unconditional ("Who Am I" project)

John Experience 10.01.2010

Battle Studies

I loved the pouring rain and how I got drenched in it as I drowned in John's mesmerizing music. I just hated the umbrellas that blocked my view. Still, it was the best! John and his band, intensely AWEsome and there's just nothing like knowing you're in awe. I loved how John and his band just played. They were literally just PLAYing and havin' fun! It was thrilling watching them do their thing with such passion! Oh, and John is a genius! His music is immortal. His talent is one of a kind. And his wit, his charm, his swagger. And how he just makes me melt. I love him.

I was a little disappointed too. It didn't turn out how I wanted it to. Blame the event organizers, ushers, or whoever. But all I know is, I still had fun and I loved it. Someone had tears of joy disguised as raindrops. What an excuse. Wait. That was me. LOL

Laugh all you want. But I was darn happy I finally got to see the man.

And the best song? Still, Slow Dancing... Still electrifying. And still, it lingers.

I love you John!

To EA...

The magical ticket: the best surprise gift I've gotten so far. Thank you so much! It made me so happy. Can't thank you enough.

More.

The more I know, the more I know I don't know.

In Repair

In Repair

By Andrea Moredo · Thursday, September 16, 2010

It's my turn to fix my life. :)

Clueless.

Clueless.

By Andrea Moredo · Wednesday, September 15, 2010

I have to fix my life.

I hate it.

I hate it.

By Andrea Moredo · Monday, August 23, 2010

And I keep telling myself to walk away. But I stay.

Stay.

Balloon Tossing

We must be like children. We must find happiness in simple things. If we don't, we'd be miserable. Life is complicated, yeah. But it doesn't mean we should be sad or stressed all the time. Take a break. Breathe. And it doesn't mean we only get happiness from things that cost a lot. Happiness does not cost much. Look around you. Appreciate. There are things in the world that are often neglected. Why don't you look around and slow down for a while? Take it slow. Get a chocolate dirty ice cream, play balloon tossing, or a watermelon Blowpop lollipop like I do. Whatever makes you happy. Or just be with someone you like bein' with. Simple and sweet moments. And SMILE.

The only way to speed up is to slow down.

Take a break, love! ;)

Forget regret.

Learn.

HOPE for HOPE.

by Andrea Moredo on Monday, July 26, 2010 at 10:23pm

SONA July 2010/Pres. Aquino

I'm happy that President NOYNOY AQUINO is brave. He is not afraid to reveal the truth and to be different. There is HOPE. I love my country.

Hope for hope, people.

:)

Titleless

Sometimes, you just don't know what to do. You act like nothing's wrong, but you know you're not okay. But what the hell, right? You get up and dance to life's music. Sometimes, life gets complicated. And we all know that. And guess what... You're a complicated character in a complicated world. The world is not complicated. It is inconsistent. How often do you hear people now talk about inconsistencies as being consistent. Like they say, "consistently inconsistent"... So when does the music stop? Never. Life goes on. And the world won't stop for you. You just gotta live life. It's hard to read something that sparks irony. But darling, life is harder if you don't learn to love it. Love life as if it were a gift. It is a gift. A gift with strings attached, yeah. But what is a present without ribbons around it? A complicated life makes life an intricate piece of art, music sheet, or clothing. Would you rather marry a boring life? I'd propose to it, but I won't marry Bore. And one more thing... Tell me again, why do you push people away? And the crickets sing.

Love (verb) love (noun).

Try.

Use Somebody cover - ANDREA

Use Somebody is one of the songs that pierce my heart. Everybody needs somebody to love and be loved by.

Another thing is, we know 'bout people who are in dire need of help. They could use somebody. Anybody. Someone like you. We act passive or even pity them. But they don't need mere sympathy. They need somebody. Look around. Help. I you want to live, love. If you want to be somebody, be that somebody. Love (verb) love (noun).

Setcard

Writing a song...

I close my eyes to see.

I close my eyes to see.

Choices matter.

Choices matter. You gotta know what you want. Perform (or do what you want) for the love of it, not for the money, not for the fame, not for anything temporary. ;) Be still. Don't rush.

What To Do

THE LIGHTS FELT ME... :)) Hahaha!

WHAT TO DO

ANDREA Moredo

Copyright 2009

Baby, I'm only gonna say this once

I love you but I'm scared to be with you

I try to hide the shame, I keep running from the pain

Oh

Baby, I'm only gonna say this once

I never wanted to let you go but that's the only way I know

Now I keep running away, running away

Now I keep running away from you

*

Tell me what to do

I'm just do confused

Tell me what to do

I'm just so confused

Why is everythin' so jaded

Do you think we could make it

Baby, I'm only gonna say this once

When you asked I said I didn't care

Baby, that was all a lie

That was all a lie

So now...

*

Critics, THEY and YOU

A time comes when you care less about what THEY want you to be, and you become who YOU want to be. Dealing with issues MAKES YOU A BETTER PERSON. It feels good not feeling the need to compromise just to please whoever. One of the best things in life is knowing who you are, what you want, and knowing when to care and when to ignore. Someone once told me, "People will always talk. Just let them. You can't please everyone. As long as you know you're not stepping on anyone, ignore them. Just be yourself." True. And one of the obvious things one should know is this: If you barely know someone, shut up. In other words, don't judge and gossip about someone you barely know. And IF there's something about that someone that you don't like, TELL THE PERSON. Not the world. The world won't solve your problem. Be fair. You'll never know his/her reason if you don't tell him/her. He/She'll never say sorry if he/she doesn't know what to be sorry for. Understand before jumping to conclusions. If you think something is wrong, the best thing to do is to UNDERSTAND the situation AND the person's reasons. You can't understand without knowing him/her. Only cowards back-stab. Love. Hating is tiring, don't you think? Love. Just love. You might find out in the end that you've just been making a fool out of yourself, wasting time, and getting stuck. You'll end up finding yourself tired. You might end up finding yourself as a gossiper, a liar, and one who has nothing else to do but to talk about someone whose life is more interesting. So think. Yeah, think.

To HATERS:
I feel sorry for those who judge and those who gossip. It makes me think of them as insecure and got nothing better to do. These are the people who want attention. They just wanna feel good about themselves. Guys, think. Stop hating. Just love. I mean, seriously. But hey, thanks for making me a better person somehow. Lol.

:))
BATO BATO SA LANGIT, TAMAAN 'WAG MAGALIT.

Still You

STILL YOU
ANDREA Moredo
Copyright 2010

So nice to hear that voice again
That serenaded me way back when
I was in your arms and I adored you
You're still the person I adore

The feeling never seemed to let me go
Though I tried so hard not to let it show
And I fought so hard everyday
Just to end up sayin' what I'm about to say

*
You still take my breath away
You always know just what to say
And everytime I try to let you go
It just makes me miss you so

So nice to hold your hand again
Drowning in the thought like I did back then
Now everything's surreal
How real you make me feel

Funny how crazy we could get
How we both just know what isn't said
You're the only one who understands me
Don't know how you do what you do to me

*

You still sweep me off my feet
Every move you make is sweet
And everytime I try to say goodbye
It just turns into a lie

'Cause

*

Near To You Cover

Still You - ANDREA

Raw record of Still You...

I was sick. Lol. :))

SUPPORT WORLD VISION.

BASTA LOVELIFE RADIO/Unconditional

Thanks Kevin Sanders! :)

Auditioned for The Bar TVC @ The Manor, Eastwood,

Sang my song "Unconditional",

Did a little ramp modeling with beautiful friends Viv Gemora, Ia Pantig, Sofia Andres,

Had fun.

Hosted by Direk Audie Gemora and Supermodel Rissa Mananquil

TV5's Talentadong Pinoy Carl Acosta taught me some dance moves and kissed me on the cheek. Cute awesome kid!

Definitely Filipino's Photos - The Prettiest Faces and Coolest Photos of Definitely Filipino

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=112322&id=106259116938&ref=mf#!/photo.php?pid=3118933&id=106259116938

Conspiracy

Conspiracy Bar

Gospel Jam

Hosted by Direk Mark Aranal and Ms. Jeanne Velasco-Vicars

THE EDGE RADIO

Val John and I were interviewed by hosts Joyce Burton and Owie Burns, with Dj Ron Titular. Sang some songs then had pizza. Had fun!

www.theedge.ph

Crawl

P

PROUD PINOY. Fabulously Filipino.

Red

I want to dye my hair subtle auburn red.

Inauguration Invitation

Papa was invited by Vice Pres. Binay to the inauguration. He went.

But it was a hot day. So thank God for television! :))

Basta Lovelife radio show

My song "Unconditional" was played on the BASTA LOVELIFE SHOW. You can listen to the show or download it by clicking "podcast" at kuyakevin.com. (June 30, 2010)

Unconditional

Music & Lyrics: Andrea Moredo
Arranger: Marlone Silva

Copyright 2010
ANDREA Moredo

andrea.moredo@yahoo.com

When the music fades
When the lights go down
Just as I am
Just as I am

Unconditional
You said I love you
Just as you are
Just as you are

Now I understand what it feels to be loved by you
Now I'm falling in love
Over and over and over again
And over again

When the clock strikes twelve
And the magic's gone
Just as I am
Just as I am

Lost in your eyes
You said you're lovely
Just as you are
Just as you are

You meant what you said when you said
I love you just as you are
Just as you are
I love you too

I Know

I don't wanna call you "God" 'cause I don't want a boss

I don't wanna call you "Lord" I don't want to surrender

I don't wanna call you "Father" 'cause I don't see you with me

I don't know what to call you 'cause I don't know who you are

But I'm stuck here in the moment playing pretend

And I'll be stuck in denial, in this quicksand

So now my heart is silently screaming the truth that I know

I need you, I want you, somehow, I know

I don't wanna pray, it's like talking to the wall

I don't wanna kneel, I don't want to feel inferior

I don't want silence, it beats the truth out of me

I don't want something I can't feel or see

But I'm stuck here in the moment playing pretend

And I'll be stuck in denial, in this quicksand

So now my heart is silently screaming the truth that I know

I need you, I want you, somehow, I know

Yeah I'm stuck here in the moment playing pretend

And I'll be stuck in denial, in this quicksand

So now my heart is silently screaming the truth that I know

I need you, I want you, somehow, I know

Oh reality

You're scaring me

Whatever you are, whoever you are...

Save me

'Cause I'm stuck here in the moment playing pretend

And I'll be stuck in denial, in this quicksand

So now my heart is silently screaming the truth that I know

I need you, I want you, somehow, I know

I need you, I want you, somehow, I know

ANDREA Moredo

2010

.

Just SHUT UP and LOVE. Seriously.

Real

I want and need to know and feel what's real.

And I miss it.

Irrational

Sometimes, love seems irrational. But in the end, you'll see everything makes sense. Love (verb) love (noun).

There's no such thing as "enough moments"... Time proves everything that has to be proven. Like love.

It takes one answer to make your thing official. "Do you love her/him already?" Any other reason would be pathetic.

And so what happens if it's not yet official? You ask what'll make you keep what you got? If you argue, what'll keep you together? Who'll say sorry? How's it gonna work out? One word. LOVE. Genuine love. Love is indeed a big word. It entails a lot. That is why LOVE is the answer. Sounds cliche. Then again, cliches are often said because they often make sense. Take it slow. Build a strong friendship. Everything else is gonna happen if it's supposed to happen. No need to fake it. No need to be trying hard.

LOVE LOVE.

Irrationally rational,
ANDREA

Toxic

Reach out. Everybody deserves to be loved. She wears her heart on her sleeve. At least that's how it seems. But where art thou? She's a coward. Got fears, flaws and all. "Don't cry, child! I'm your fairy godmother." Cinderella was lucky. Life is no fairytale at all. Mulan saw her reflection show who she was inside. I see more than one reflection. A thousand more, I guess. Such a complicated character. Not so hard to figure out. What's hard is to see the reflection in different mirrors. Every beauty needs to go out with an idiot. How could you stand next to the truth and not see it? Oh, change of heart. I'll go crazy if I don't go crazy tonight. God, she wants you. Reveal yourself. Beyonce's daddy must be a good one. Love, save the empty. There goes the fear. Sometimes, some lies can take a minute to fully realize. Don't let fears overcome you. I wish it weren't that hard. Another day of love and inspiration. Both roads seemed to pave the way for a better meaning, a better life, a better better. Love love. Be still. Confusion, go away. I guess it'll always be a time for change. But honey, where do you go from here? Bella's prince is in disneyworld. "You don't need a prince, Bella." Mugglesam, you're enough to make her smile. I don't need a prince. Just someone to fall back on. And if letting go is the right choice, there is no falling back on. The feeling of bein' alone is not pleasant. It just scares her at night. Parties and the ball gowns, make-up, clothes, and some Louis Vuittons, Zaras, and Guccis. All to seize the day. Turn it upside down. Make the world go 'round. Whatta beautiful day, Indie Arie. Just feel better. Santana, what did you do to feel better? Sing a sad song just to turn it around. Smile. Superhuman. Kelly, is this what it feels like to really cry? Is it over yet? Can I open my eyes? It feels like you're a million miles away. Rihanna, tell me about it.

Reply

"Life gets so confusing. There are times when you don't know what's right from wrong anymore from all the voices you keep hearing around you. I guess you just gotta be strong at times like these. You shouldn't be defined by your pain nor from what others say about you. It's just sad that our friendship has to be broken from all the outside lies. Don't let go, love. Stay with us. WE LOVE YOU."

"...we can love you until the end 'coz you're a beautiful mess and nothing else.. with all your flaws hahaha! so what?!... i dont care.. kahit sabog ka pa, you're still lovely with your smile so warm... it's so magical never ever change though you're a b*tch in the afternoon(i love saying this line as well as the person) cause we love you! we'll do everything so you won't fall, cause together we'll be holding on. i believe... the wait is so worth it. don't stop inspiring. keep fighting, keep smiling,keep shining hehe.. never give up!
i LOVE YOU COMPLICATED CHARACTER..."

"Dont be scared, we see your true colors and thats why we love you!!:D:) so we'll keep holding on!!:D:) EVEN IF I HAVE TO CRAWL TILL WE CAN WALK AGAIN, SO WE CAN RUN AND BECOME STRONG ENOUGH TO JUMP AND THEN FLY. :D :) NEVER LETTING GO, I MEAN IT , DOING AND SHOWING LOVE :D --------WE JUST CANT STOP LOVING YOU, :D :) LOVE ......LOVE IS THE ANSWER :D"

Thank you, guys. :)

Love&Hate

I hate that you love that I hate that I love you. I HATE YOU, John!

I want to send a child to school.

Someday soon, somehow I shall.

Happy

So what if it hurts me? So what if I break down? So what if this world just throws me off the edge? I wanna hear my sound...'Cause I just wanna be happy. HAPPY/Leona Lewis

:)

Slowly, love is loving me back again... And I'm loving it.

I LOVE LOVE.

I shall be talking about love and I don't care if you don't like the idea or if you think it's cliche.

Lately, I've been thankful. I felt awfully bad when I felt like I've lost a lot and I felt so alone, felt like a rough diamond thrown into the sea. But lately, I've been so thankful to those who made (and makes) me feel loved. Yeah, I've lost. But found. Yeah, I've lost. But won.

The reason I hug a lot is that it's my way of spreading love. Like what I've said in my previous note, hugs make one a better person (see my note "I SUPPORT THE FREE HUGS CAMPAIGN!"). So I hug to somehow make the world a better place. Although our world isn't perfect and sometimes may even be depressing, it's worth loving it and everything in it. The little things we do is like a ripple. It makes a difference. It's the butterfly effect, it's the pay it forward scene. It's love. Love is something that we must not take for granted. Yeah, we tend to not care. But we should. We tend to love hate instead of love. We tend to just not do anything. I encourage you to love love. I say "love love" because I mean LOVE (verb) LOVE (noun). Do something. We shouldn't be selfish. I know I am selfish sometimes. We all are. We do got flaws. But what's important is that when that happens, you say, "I am not gonna be selfish this time. I'm gonna love." Reach out. What's there to lose? We all need love. No exception. Love even strangers. Not the freaky love! I mean... For example, janitors/janitress. Initiate a conversation. Make them feel that they exist. Or taxi drivers. Talk to them about the news, about a recent Pacman fight, about their stand on this and that, about music, about anything! Not all taxi drivers are rude and annoying. There are actually some who are nice, smart and interesting. Or maids. Be a friend to them. Be like a sister/brother to them. Make them feel that you care. Or SMILE! What's there to lose? Magically, smile does a lot. It makes everything seem better. Smile to those you love (that should not exclude strangers). Smile, it does good. :)

I encourage you to love. Yeah, it is hard sometimes. I would know. But keep holding on. Keep loving. Eventually, you'll find that love is finding it's way back to you. Don't let your heart stop doing what it's meant to do. Love love. I love ya'll! :*

Love should not lose its meaning. When you say I LOVE YOU, mean it. Otherwise, shush. So people of the world, JUST LOVE.

Love,
ANDREA

I've been called...

I've been called ugly.
I've been called beautiful.

I've been called an angel.
I've been called a b*tch.

I've been called conservative.
I've been called wild.

I've been called good.
I've been called bad.

I've been called selfish.
I've been called thoughtful.

I've been called sensible.
I've been called crazy.

I've been called prim & proper.
I've been called silly.

I've been called expressive.
I've been called not expressive.

I've been called sensitive.
I've been called numb.

I've been called simple.
I've been called articulate.

I've been called weird.
I've been called cool.

I've been called a snob.
I've been called friendly.

I've been called talkative.
I've been called a listener.

I've been called understanding.
I've been called impatient.

I've been called sweet.
I've been called scary.

I've been called a killjoy.
I've been called fun.

I've been called cautious.
I've been called adventurous.

I've been called an open book.
I've been called a mystery.

I've been called boring.
I've been called interesting.

I've been called a loser.
I've been called a big fish.

I've been called a thinker (one who thinks a lot).
I've been called a "feel-er" (one who feels a lot).

I've been called typical.
I've been called eccentric.

I've been called an introvert.
I've been called an extrovert.

I've been called a follower.
I've been called a leader.

I've been called approachable.
I've been called distant.

I've been called inhibited.
I've been called free spirited.

I've been called passive.
I've been called passionate.

I've been called cheerful.
I've been called emotional.

I've been called shy.
I've been called confident.

I've been this and that.
Yeah, irony seems to love me.

I don't know how and why this could be... LOL
But I guess this helped me understand the world better.

Ironically, we are ALL DIFFERENT.
People of the world, IT'S OKAY TO BE DIFFERENT. Love who you are no matter who you are. The world got nothing on you if you love yourself. Stereotypes are just stereotypes. Look in the mirror, embrace yourself, smile, and say, "You are one of a kind, babe! Me likey!" :))

Love,
ANDREA

Fight

I'm fighting. I'm strong.
But it gets so tiring. But I'll fight.

But I'll fight. Not because I'm strong. But because I love you. I gotta want this. Yeah, I'm hella tired. But I wanna (not because I gotta) be strong for you. I'm gonna fight.
But you gotta understand that I need a little silence too. I need some "It's gonna be alright..." myself. I need to disappear somehow. So don't expect me to snap my fingers and make them all go away. Fighting means there's something going against you. So it's hard. It's a challenge. But unlike yesterday, my diamonds won't be kept hidden in my pocket. Although rough and uncut, I'll be holding them in my hands with pride and passion. Fell to the ground once, and then again, and one more time... because of it. And there goes the fear. I just need to feel better. The haze is making everything seem both chaotic and serene. Yeah, irony is my shadow.

I need you to listen. Just listen. Listen and understand. Need I say this a million times? Hahaha.

I'll fight.
But understand that it is hard. To turn it all around. Still, I'll be smiling at you with all my heart and strength. I'm fighting because I love you. Not because I gotta prove something. I'm fighting so you'd think of me whenever you feel like you're losing grip and got almost nothing to hold on to, and you'll be strong. Be stronger than me. I dare you. Be stronger. Because you are.

I got a song in my heart, and it's one that's subtly losing its melody. I won't let it fade. Silently screaming heart, beat louder! You, listen...

And you, BE STRONGER. FIGHT HARDER. Don't let gravity hold you down. Don't let yourself get stuck in that abyss. Recover. Laugh a little. No, a lot. Smile like there are stars. My advice... BREATHE.

If you're like me and you sometimes feel the need to disappear, go ahead. Find silence. Silence screams the truth. We need it sometimes. When others think we are insane, we know those are the moments when we are sane. When others think you are different, we know it's because they are too. Go ahead and disappear. Sometimes it's okay. I know the feeling. I used to think this was all drama. But hell yeah, this is real. I found myself in it. I think to myself, "So, some do feel like this. So this is the feeling..." And most would take their own life. Now I get where they're coming from, and I've seen myself in a scary familiar scenario. Whatever you may call it, however foolish it may sound, or dramatic, I've witnessed it myself. It is hard. And I also know how hard it is to do this, but
Disappear... Then APPEAR AGAIN.

To appear again
is harder than to disappear. But that's the challenge. I dare you as I dare myself. Wait, I dare you to do better. BE STRONGER.

BREATHE.

Don't regret. Learn.
Don't take your life. How can you appear again if you do?

In a seemingly endless tunnel, hold your breath... And wish. Then you'll find that there's an end to each tunnel.
Disappear... Then APPEAR AGAIN.

One, two, three...

:)

Understand

Listen. Understand. Keep.
In the rough... Falling down, holding diamonds, silently screaming.
Do you hear it? Listen.
Listen, please. Understand, please. Keep, please. Read between the lines, please.

Not broken, not dead. Not heard. Not understood.

I just want you to be here with me. Now. I need you to be with me.

I love love. And I'd love to love you who loves. Hahaha. Makes sense? It wouldn't make sense to you.

Sigh... and a thousand more.

Then smile. :)
Right? Right. :|